Your Messenger message:

"I am hounded by anxiety and pamic attacks recently. I couldn't get work nor start a small palamig business. My friendship has been hounding me day and night as well. He was an angel all thoughout the pandemic to me but started slipping away late last year. He is making efforts to come back these past months and they are sincere. I just cannot get over my insecurities and what we fought over (him slipping away) last year and it has been hindering me from being positive not only in our friendship but also in all aspects pf my life. Please guide me on how to be better able to contain all these anxieties and pain. Thank you"

My reply:

Hello _______!

First of all, do NOT take anti-anxiety medication. You will be hopelessly hooked on it, it will drain you of your funds, and it will make you miserable, hot-headed, and cynical.

I scanned your Photo. Your friendship started slipping away because of your own shortcomings. Your panic attacks are a result of your guilt. They are the same panic attacks that newborn babies experience after being delivered from the womb--suddenly they must learn how to breathe and feel the sensations of heat, cold, and hunger in a completely different world.

Sounds like your partner was your pillar all along. Why not forgive yourself and give both of you another chance? After all, you are not perfect yourself, though you are impractically idealistic. Even if your partner took advantage of you at times, it was because your partner had to fulfill certain material needs. In the last analysis, such incidents are petty.

Go back to your friendship. Yes, it is as simple as that. Yet, remember that all partnerships have to be MAINTAINED and WORKED FOR. They won't run by themselves like a machine that doesn't require electricity or gasoline.