Your Messenger message:

"Hi Pai. How are you?Sorry for interrupting you.I know you are busy. If i may ask about something?

"Despite what iv’e been through from the past and the recent, the feeling of doubt, being sceptic and cynical would somehow linger in me. "I know that i need to remind myself that \Im the only rescuer of myself\. "From your viewpoint. Am i still on track or being a drifter at times? "Thank you Pai."

My reoly:

Hello _____!

Frankly, only you can answer that question--and maybe you have already.